Good Morning! Sorry I haven't written anything this week, things have been busy! Don't worry though, I always stop to have some fun! Saturday night after I got off work I joined so many friends at the Michigan City Beach Show. It was great seeing children rocking out safely on the stage, while their fathers were moshing below! I danced in the field with a friend. I can't risk injury now that I'm getting older. The last time I moshed was at a Blood In Blood Out basement show, when I hurt my knee. It's never been quite the same since I bent it a little too far the wrong way. I didn't want to commemorate their last show by doing it again. That being said I was still on the outside of the pit just dying a little that I couldn't do it anymore. It still put a smile in my heart to see my friends having fun, and to see the kids enjoying the music. It was great to see so many big guys too, I feel for them always afraid to put their full strength into things not wanting to kill anyone. That night a few times the front cleared and all the biggest dudes just knocked into each other. I never saw such glee on their faces. I had a great time at the show! I hope there is one next year! I'll make sure to request off this time! Check the video out for a little snippet. I do recommend checking out all the bands. I put the links in the description of the video. Talk to you soon! Love ya, Kazidelicious
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I went to hippie fest this weekend. It was a fun time! Check out the footage for a taste of what it was like. Do you ever step up to a building, and just know something important is supposed to happen there? When you get that feeling do you keep walking, or do you find out what that thing is?
I am a firm believer in following your instincts. So when I was walking past 1982 bar on one of my first day's back in Florida, I had to stop. The flyers in the window talked about free shows, video games, and an open mic comedy night! Suddenly I felt like I had found a comfortable place for me! Unfortunately they weren't open yet, but I instantly started looking them up online. After some light research I found they had an open mic night for comedians, so I had to check it out! It was a comfortable, chill, atmosphere. Some of the other comedians were intimidating! Some of them were so amazing! Still, I got up there and did my thing! The owner, and bar tenders were always inviting. The second time that I performed at 1982, I got too drunk, depressed my set wasn't hitting, and I walked off the stage. What seemed like the worst thing ever, turned into a great moment. As I was in the alley a group of other comedians came out to check on me and shared stories of their previous "terrible moments" on stage. We instantly bonded, and that changed the progression of things. We went on to perform together at open mics, and in a music video together. I kept performing at 1982 bar and ended throwing the first ever Kazidelicious Show Live! I gave out hand painted zombie dolls as prizes for participants. We had a mix of stand up comedy, and improv acting. It was a fun time! The owner of the bar, is inspiring! She's a rock star, a business owner, and she even takes time out to volunteer! I ended up volunteering at Camp Rock, and teaching a class on improv acting. It was a lot of fun! If I had just kept walking, how would that winter in Florida have gone? I'm not sure, but I'm glad I followed my gut! Thank You 1982 Bar in Gainesville, Florida! You changed my life! *EDIT* after posting this a friend notified me that 1982 bar is no longer open. This is very sad. This was a great place, and I am so Thankful for my memories those two winters in Florida! You don't know your life effects
another's last breath choices in conjunction with the universes function mystifying my mind you can fast forward not rewind so step cautiously, and positively add to life the effect of the butterfly wing, is no lie.
For me, going places is daunting. Coming up with small talk is excruciating. Many people assume I'm outgoing, but I think that's just the alcohol.
When I used to drink all the time I socialized more often. I went out almost daily. As I get older that lifestyle is exhausting, expensive, and for me inauthentic. Now I do enjoy the occasional glass of wine, or a beer here and there, but I don't drink often. I find myself deciding to stay home more often because of that. This summer I want to do more, and live an exciting life without having to drink all the time. This is a goal I'm setting for myself. Learning to be social without having to drink. Yesterday I got out, hung out on the patio of a local pub with two close friends. Had some decent food, and a delicious drink. Didn't really deal with social anxieties. Felt like a win. Celebrate the small hurdles, they lead to monumental ones! My overall insecurities have been less of an issue lately, and it's crazy how negatively those thoughts affected my life. Now I can see that my happiness relies heavily on my thought process in dealing with things. I love ya! Kazi Delicious
Good morning lovelies!
I'm feeling pretty positive today! I've got to go to work in a few hours, and it's going to be busy! This is a holiday weekend so the mall will have sidewalk sales and be packed with people from out of town. This weekend I hope to kill my sales goals, and have fun at work with my customers! Yesterday I came home from work and vegged out, and fell asleep on the lazyboy with the pup nearby. Tonight I plan to hang with friends and enjoy this awesome warm weather we have! Hope you have a great weekend! Love ya, Kazi Delicious
Sorry it's been a little bit. I've been pretty busy lately. My album is at the end stages and then we will actually have physical copies in our hands!!!!! I'm so excited!
I created a giant ball sack mask for an upcoming music video! It's crazy! I reworked my motivation room, and made it more conducive to making art. I also decided to work on my business plan, and take a few online classes. I've been doing a lot. I'm sorry this is not formatted great, or written well. I just figured I should check in. Love ya, Kazidelicious
Well this week I started actually doing this kedo thing. I stopped having cheat days two days in. I'm going to try to stick to it. I've been doing low carb for a while now, but I kept breaking my own rules and getting milk shakes at dq. Now I get heavy whipping cream, vanilla, sweetner, and cocoa powder together for a similar tasting treat. It's not the same, but it's a good substitute.
I've joined a bunch of kedo groups on facebook and then after two days of that have unfollowed most of them. There is a lot of conflicting information out there, so I'm doing my own research for sure. I'm starting to learn the idea behind eating clean. I think long term it will be better for me. I'll keep you updated. talk to you soon! Love ya, Kazi Delicious Dealing with bipolar disorder sometimes it's surprising that you can say it's been this many day's and I'm feeling okay. I haven't had any manic moments. I'm not sure what exactly is helping, but I'm not complaining.
I've got the music blasting in my headphones and I'm getting pumped up for the day. I want to spend my time living, not planning to live. I just thought I should check in. Have a great day! Love ya, Kazi Delicious
I wasn't sure how many day's it'd been, since my last "triggered" moment. Then I logged in to write a blog and I saw May 4th, and it was empty. Empty because I don't remember what I'd written. I do recall however, that it was rooted in dark depression. After the moment I wrote it, I went back and erased it. I didn't want it to cause issues. I contacted my "free therapy" aka best friends and talked things out. I separated myself from the thing triggering me. I can tell I'm growing in my ability to find outlets. I'm not letting my anxiety take me out of the game as easily.
This week was better. I didn't let my insecurities rule my life, and I was actually living. I hope I can continue this trend. Love you guys! Kazidelicious |
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