For me, going places is daunting. Coming up with small talk is excruciating. Many people assume I'm outgoing, but I think that's just the alcohol.
When I used to drink all the time I socialized more often. I went out almost daily. As I get older that lifestyle is exhausting, expensive, and for me inauthentic.
Now I do enjoy the occasional glass of wine, or a beer here and there, but I don't drink often. I find myself deciding to stay home more often because of that. This summer I want to do more, and live an exciting life without having to drink all the time. This is a goal I'm setting for myself. Learning to be social without having to drink.
Yesterday I got out, hung out on the patio of a local pub with two close friends. Had some decent food, and a delicious drink. Didn't really deal with social anxieties. Felt like a win.
Celebrate the small hurdles, they lead to monumental ones! My overall insecurities have been less of an issue lately, and it's crazy how negatively those thoughts affected my life. Now I can see that my happiness relies heavily on my thought process in dealing with things.
I love ya!