The commitment of writing every day became more difficult than I had expected. I could say I was too busy, but there were a few times I was watching Netflix while my laptop sat unopened nearby. I lacked motivation and I allowed myself to wallow in that moment.
Reflecting on this non writing debacle I started contemplating lots of other things too. My mind is jumbled with random thoughts so I rarely know where it could be headed. I started to think about perspective, and blessings.
The moments in life that I was in anguish over things that seemed major, that's when my blessings were right there and I didn't see them. I can recall the drunken time at a party where I was upset some goofy guy didn't like me. I let it get to me and became depressed about myself, that no guy was made for a girl like me. Little did I know my future (current) boyfriend was at that party, single, and a great match, but I didn't see him then. Maybe It wasn't the time, but it was also about perspective. There was also the time I wanted to rent a house so bad, even though it was still a half hour from work, and at the top of our budget, but they chose different renters. I got so upset that I couldn't live in that house. I remember dramatically crying thinking I was stuck in my apartment forever. It was my two year goal to buy a home, but instead six months later I became a homeowner. My new home was even two hundred less dollars a month, and now less than minutes from work! Good thing I wasn't stuck in that lease! Now I start to wonder what other blessings I am missing along the way.
We can choose to see the world melodramatically and get depressed about all the bad things, but if we spend too much time on that we might miss the good things coming. There are blessings in the world for you, just change your perspective. Focus on the good things all around, and not just on what you think you need. Sometimes the universe has other plans for us ;)
Have a great day guys! I really plan to!