When I truly think of it, I should be healed by now. I am a warrior, and I've conquered my greatest fear. I've always been afraid for someone I trust to betray me. My ex accomplished that.
One may assume that once you've survived such a horrific mess, that you would no longer be afraid of it. Unfortunately it is still a demon I wrestle with. I hope that as I grow and change I learn to put my trust in the right people. I fear that I am wrong. Sometimes I have nightmares that test my sanity. I wake up sweating, frantically trying to decide what to feel. I have to have faith.
Each day is a step towards loving myself more, and having more confidence in myself. I think this is the key to unlocking the fear, and making it a worry of the past. If someone should choose to hurt me, I am stable enough to withstand it. I am woman, hear me ROAR!
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