No Warning, I Sleep

         *trigger warning, this is a poem about depression. Please understand that as the author I do fight depression daily. For me it is a battle, but please do not be concerned. I have gained years of experience in dealing with my triggers. I write, I create, I talk to someone about it. These are very real feelings, but I also have the strength to overcome them. I hope if you're having feelings like this you also have that strength. If you don't please please reach out to a hotline or someone experienced to help you. I love you guys! 



            Sometimes I wonder, If I'll ever be okay,
moments of clarity come, how quickly they fade,
I'm trapped inside my sanity, until the demons return,
and without hesitation, they cause my world to burn,
it's incomprehensible, that I'm still grasping tightly,
to the parasites on my back, that claw, squeeze, and bite me,
no warning, I sleep.
             When I wake, it is as though I've been living a different hell,
Submerged into my nightmares, destinations you dare not dwell,
so exhausted, drained, praying for reprieve,
knowing this is another thing, I will not receive,
I cry, tears overwhelmingly abundant, 
I stare, as I sit alone in silence,
no warning, I sleep.
             when will it be everlasting?