Guilt

     I find myself feeling guilty about things all the time. Yesterday I had the opportunity to record on my album and instead I sat at home scrolling facebook uninterested, while also semi-watching a show. I was falling back into old depression habits, and I didn't want to socialize. I was emotional and even worse I felt guilty about it.
             It's a bit ridiculous that I allow myself to feel guilty when I need a mental health day. It also sucks that I can't see, in those moments that recording could've been the best thing for my mental health. Music is my means of escape, there is a reason I've loved to do it for so long. It's hard to see it when I'm in a low. I'm trying to keep my headphones close by this week and see if that helps me.
         I didn't know if any of you ever felt this way? If so leave a comment shoooooooo~
​Until next time!