If she could be any animal she would be... I don't know, a poodle. Who makes up these stupid quizzes anyway? Maybe one day someone could pay me for that! I'm so tired of punching the clock at the salon every day. Every chick in a insecurity crisis thinks she can bring in a picture of Halle Berry and get the hook up! So while they're overly critical and irrational dealing with their cheating boyfriends, I get to deal with them. It used to be my dream to cut hair, but a lot of dreams have changed.
I used to fantasize about having the perfect wedding, with the perfect man, the perfect dress, my father escorting me to the finish line. I had that, almost. I was engaged to be married to my boyfriend of two years. Javier was perfect, until I realized that's just what he wanted me to see. Two weeks before we were to be married I found out he'd been living a double life. Javier had a six month old son, and I'd gone to school with his mother! The perfect dress didn't matter much at that point. I threw it in the stack, with all the other memories I burned.
Today was a new day, today I walked around with my head in a daze. I had no way of processing how many times he'd lied. It takes quite a few to hide an entire pregnancy. Javier was my best friend, I thought he was my soul mate, and now I feel myself breaking. I feel like I can barely swallow as the lump in my throat holds so much pain, and my tears free fall. Life is never going to be the same.
Two days passed in a blur of crying, working, and drinking. I couldn't bare to eat, it wasn't much of a thought. The pain in my stomach is nothing to the betrayal I'm feeling. I haven't slept, sleeping allows for dreaming, and I wont let him creep back into my life in any way. Walking across the kitchen to get another cup of coffee, my phone started ringing.
"Nadia, it's your mother." Her voice was quiet, and shaky
"mama? Are you okay?"
" I don't know how to tell you this, but your father has died."
"what, how?" I was in a confused panic. I could hear my mother crying on the other end of the phone. I hadn't even called anyone to tell them my engagement was off. I hadn't even processed that my world was falling apart. Now I'm trying to understand how to hug my mother through the phone, because it hurts so much to hear her cry.
"Your father had a heart attack, it was sudden and there was nothing they could do." more tears from my mother.
"I'm so sorry mama" we cried together on the phone and the time ticked away. I don't think either of us knew anything else to say. When we hung up, I knew, it was time to move back to my hometown.
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